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I keep looking at Nihon Kiin's (Go Association of Japan's) paper catalogue like getting a board will come with an opponent, or something.
Pathetic.
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Pathetic.
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Fucking Japan. I have 24 months left on my visa, but to get a new cell without having to pay for two years of service in advance plus the cost of the phone I need to have 27 months or national insurance. Which is all to say I'm stuck with my 3-year-old cellphone FOREVER.
With all the garbage at work, and the delays finishing my application to graduate school, maybe I should just leave this country already.
There's a pretty thin line between sticking things out for the payoff and wallowing in mediocrity. Also, I'm pretty damned well convinced that the shadow of being insufficient that has always been cast over my life not only always will be, but will only get deeper as time passes.
Of course, I could just be depressed/giving in to depression because I can't find anything better on the horizon.
So where does a person with no money, plenty of debts, no qualifications, no skills, no family connections, and not even youth or good looks go, and what do they do?
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With all the garbage at work, and the delays finishing my application to graduate school, maybe I should just leave this country already.
There's a pretty thin line between sticking things out for the payoff and wallowing in mediocrity. Also, I'm pretty damned well convinced that the shadow of being insufficient that has always been cast over my life not only always will be, but will only get deeper as time passes.
Of course, I could just be depressed/giving in to depression because I can't find anything better on the horizon.
So where does a person with no money, plenty of debts, no qualifications, no skills, no family connections, and not even youth or good looks go, and what do they do?
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Oh, and I feel that I should add that I can't remember ever feeling glad that I held out with anything, and in fact can only recall instances of having regretted wasting time and energy going nowhere and accomplishing nothing.
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I'm existentially tired. I'm so sick of bullshit and struggling for nothing. Can't I just transfer whatever life I have left to someone who actually wants it?
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