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sjcarpediem) wrote2010-10-09 03:06 pm
sjcarpediem) wrote2010-10-09 03:06 pm
Further exposition on the matter at hand
Rainy, 20C (19C)
Let the headings roll on!
Thank god!
Wow, so I'm even luckier (/more blessed) than I thought as more news comes in about this most recent takeover. More schools are closing than I thought--including Sannomiya, which was the inheritor of my school in Kobe, Rokko. If I had been allowed to stay with my students, I'd be in a FAR WORSE position right now, as I'd be out of a job, out of income, and out of housing in a high-cost city at the end of this month...
Also, my coworker here has decided, also, that he's quitting. But he'll probably be leaving much earlier than me. So I might be able to poach some of hisstudentsclients and keep my income...
Of course, it still doesn't change things
The only reason for staying here, ostensibly, was because the pay was just good enough and it should have allowed the stability and free resources in energy and time to work on that MA program at Birmingham.
That would be the best plan, really, because I need that damned degree to move on. It is best to take steps forward or up rather than backward or down, whenever possible and wherever most expedient and this is such a situation. If I can't stay here to complete an MA, I have to go back to America, recover, reapply, start over from the square before one.
I have to consider it a little more thoroughly, still, but my instinct tells me that even if things work out so that I can reliably get the 37 classes a week to keep my current contract income, which is only just good enough, I won't have the extra resources for the degree program. Of course, it's hard for me to tell, but I'll have a period for sampling, even under my current financial plan.
Even if I'm wrong
Even if I'm wrong, and staying to do the MA (assuming all else with the application works out, which is also a big question, but would also be resolved at around the same time the question of whether it is even feasible to stay would be) is possible, the time in between now and knowing that--which is currently devoted to manufacturing an escape route--will not be wasted. Everyone should always have an escape route.
So, basically, what this is all meant to say is that not only do I fully recognize and realize how easy I've got it right now (thank god, and may I continue to see the good in everything!!), there may also be a window of opportunity still open, within reach and I'm aware of it. I am now in the best possible position (all my plans have backups and contingency adjustments), and that gives me a lot of strength. Now, I am ready.
Family crests
My family has had a lot of mottoes in it's various times and places. One of my favorites has always been, "I am ready" (of course, not in English but old French ; and the full version is "I am ready to serve God" but the short version was used early and often to evoke the full meaning as well as a range of others). Last month I was thinking a lot on the train about what my personal motto might be--I've used a lot of others during my life as banners for my devotion, but none were really *mine*. "God gives me victory ; I give myself happiness", which can be shortened to "God gives" is the best I could come up with. But I still like "I am ready" better because it's so much more active and participatory....
Let the headings roll on!
Thank god!
Wow, so I'm even luckier (/more blessed) than I thought as more news comes in about this most recent takeover. More schools are closing than I thought--including Sannomiya, which was the inheritor of my school in Kobe, Rokko. If I had been allowed to stay with my students, I'd be in a FAR WORSE position right now, as I'd be out of a job, out of income, and out of housing in a high-cost city at the end of this month...
Also, my coworker here has decided, also, that he's quitting. But he'll probably be leaving much earlier than me. So I might be able to poach some of his
Of course, it still doesn't change things
The only reason for staying here, ostensibly, was because the pay was just good enough and it should have allowed the stability and free resources in energy and time to work on that MA program at Birmingham.
That would be the best plan, really, because I need that damned degree to move on. It is best to take steps forward or up rather than backward or down, whenever possible and wherever most expedient and this is such a situation. If I can't stay here to complete an MA, I have to go back to America, recover, reapply, start over from the square before one.
I have to consider it a little more thoroughly, still, but my instinct tells me that even if things work out so that I can reliably get the 37 classes a week to keep my current contract income, which is only just good enough, I won't have the extra resources for the degree program. Of course, it's hard for me to tell, but I'll have a period for sampling, even under my current financial plan.
Even if I'm wrong
Even if I'm wrong, and staying to do the MA (assuming all else with the application works out, which is also a big question, but would also be resolved at around the same time the question of whether it is even feasible to stay would be) is possible, the time in between now and knowing that--which is currently devoted to manufacturing an escape route--will not be wasted. Everyone should always have an escape route.
So, basically, what this is all meant to say is that not only do I fully recognize and realize how easy I've got it right now (thank god, and may I continue to see the good in everything!!), there may also be a window of opportunity still open, within reach and I'm aware of it. I am now in the best possible position (all my plans have backups and contingency adjustments), and that gives me a lot of strength. Now, I am ready.
Family crests
My family has had a lot of mottoes in it's various times and places. One of my favorites has always been, "I am ready" (of course, not in English but old French ; and the full version is "I am ready to serve God" but the short version was used early and often to evoke the full meaning as well as a range of others). Last month I was thinking a lot on the train about what my personal motto might be--I've used a lot of others during my life as banners for my devotion, but none were really *mine*. "God gives me victory ; I give myself happiness", which can be shortened to "God gives" is the best I could come up with. But I still like "I am ready" better because it's so much more active and participatory....
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