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Partly cloudy, 2C (-6C)
Tonight, I could not sleep after serial encounters with what appear to me to be fundamental failures to perceive reality--not to comprehend it, not to accept it, but to perceive it--and my attempts to find what the best words in response would be. And it really makes me wonder, having seen others in these moments, what do I look like in them? Furthermore, knowing that I am human, also, and certainly subject to such moments, I find it difficult to try to share what I've learned/know--almost like only perfection can correct imperfection, which I know to be inaccurate (in a world of imperfected creatures we have no choice, really, if anyone intends to get anywhere...). Which is not wholly responsible of me as a fellow human being, to allow another human being to wallow about in that kind of foolishness--nobody can possibly enjoy that, at least not if they ever become aware of it--and certainly I would not feel good about someone who let me do that....
This is especially challenging to me in the instance of perfectly intellectually able ppl denying the existence god (WoW, does that not sound fucked up enough of me, or rather far enough from where I once was on this matter?) and/or seemingly totally not noticing horrifying magnitudes of hypocrisy (am I exercising my judgmental dimension enough, yet?).
Clarity or death.... At least I know enough about ppl to know not to call them appallingly ignorant in those words to their face as the words that prove my point are leaving their lips. In the meantime, I'll try to study more closely how I came to be so sure of some of these things and maybe I can share that, at least, and even if they never become aware of what the place they're at looks like to me maybe we'll at least both come to know where we are relative to one another....
Tonight, I could not sleep after serial encounters with what appear to me to be fundamental failures to perceive reality--not to comprehend it, not to accept it, but to perceive it--and my attempts to find what the best words in response would be. And it really makes me wonder, having seen others in these moments, what do I look like in them? Furthermore, knowing that I am human, also, and certainly subject to such moments, I find it difficult to try to share what I've learned/know--almost like only perfection can correct imperfection, which I know to be inaccurate (in a world of imperfected creatures we have no choice, really, if anyone intends to get anywhere...). Which is not wholly responsible of me as a fellow human being, to allow another human being to wallow about in that kind of foolishness--nobody can possibly enjoy that, at least not if they ever become aware of it--and certainly I would not feel good about someone who let me do that....
This is especially challenging to me in the instance of perfectly intellectually able ppl denying the existence god (WoW, does that not sound fucked up enough of me, or rather far enough from where I once was on this matter?) and/or seemingly totally not noticing horrifying magnitudes of hypocrisy (am I exercising my judgmental dimension enough, yet?).
Clarity or death.... At least I know enough about ppl to know not to call them appallingly ignorant in those words to their face as the words that prove my point are leaving their lips. In the meantime, I'll try to study more closely how I came to be so sure of some of these things and maybe I can share that, at least, and even if they never become aware of what the place they're at looks like to me maybe we'll at least both come to know where we are relative to one another....