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Light shower, 7C (-2C)
My gosh... I feel so tired. And borderline overwhelmed. I was super anxious last night so didn't get enough sleep. It kindof sucked. I'm not just mentally tired but also physically from dragging a suitcase full mostly of books home from the train station and up to my apartment.
This phase of the diet is winding down much earlier than planned for various reasons and I'm already concerned about it but there's nothing I can do, really. This phase is considerably more complicated than the second (and previous) since it's more about stabilizing than continuing to lose. I didn't lose as much as I had intended even though I'm sure if these other factors hadn't played in I would have reached my goal. Now I just don't want to screw it up and gain it back. Which is why I freak out a little when stress and lack of sleep cause me to retain more water (I think...?) and show a gain on the scale rather than just not a loss...
Tonight the plan is to relax. And attack again, tomorrow. With packing and some paperwork (though, frankly, the paperwork might wait until "next year"). I am glad I decided lying sleepless in my bed last night that it would be better if I packed things from the school today than going in tomorrow. Now I have it here and waiting. I should probably throw some more of it away--it's hard to know what I should throw out, though... I have a few ideas, though. Maybe.
But I also forgot to get some of a particular spice when I went shopping, tonight [even though I made a list! but this spice wasn't *on* the list, so...], and now I've run out. Meh.
Anyway, back to relaxing. I'm at about 45% done packing--which is the point where you've done a lot but know you're not even really halfway, yet. This is perhaps the most frustrating point in packing for me... It's so demoralizing. So tonight I rest ; tomorrow I scrape and claw. I want to be basically done in the next three days (because after that I'm going to Kobe for two days) ; basically living out of my suitcase for the last week I'm here and just have a handful of bulky but simple things to put in boxes after I go see a movie (Unstoppable) after my last day of work... Then I'll get some good rest, wake up the next day not underslept or freaking out about having forgotten or not gotten to something, ship my things ahead of me, sell my bike back to the used bicycle shop on the way to the train station and be on my way to Tokyo well, well before the last train. God help me.
I'm also finding it difficult to judge, for example, if I should try to pack the rest of my jug of cold-water laundry detergent. I mean, Tokyo is supposed to have all sorts of things available that are much more difficult to find in the rest of Japan, but I'm gonna be pissed off and take it kindof hard if I throw away six months' worth of cold-water detergent only to find it's still only available on a fluke. But then it might also be pretty annoying to go to the trouble of taking it along if cold-water detergent is available in every third store... I've lived abroad long enough to prefer having more than enough ; but I've moved enough to appreciate cutting off any lose flesh I can. Conflict and conundrum.
As far as deciding what to keep or toss regarding work--I know only enough to know I don't know enough to make really good decisions, oh, and that there's no way for me to learn enough in the time and with the resources I do have.
For now, at least, I think I have plenty of boxes. And enough tape. Above these other concerns is making the decisions between what things I'll need and use (and possibly want) in the next month and therefor pack in the suitcases and what things are likely to be able to wait for six-ish weeks without making me regret it. Meh.
My gosh... I feel so tired. And borderline overwhelmed. I was super anxious last night so didn't get enough sleep. It kindof sucked. I'm not just mentally tired but also physically from dragging a suitcase full mostly of books home from the train station and up to my apartment.
This phase of the diet is winding down much earlier than planned for various reasons and I'm already concerned about it but there's nothing I can do, really. This phase is considerably more complicated than the second (and previous) since it's more about stabilizing than continuing to lose. I didn't lose as much as I had intended even though I'm sure if these other factors hadn't played in I would have reached my goal. Now I just don't want to screw it up and gain it back. Which is why I freak out a little when stress and lack of sleep cause me to retain more water (I think...?) and show a gain on the scale rather than just not a loss...
Tonight the plan is to relax. And attack again, tomorrow. With packing and some paperwork (though, frankly, the paperwork might wait until "next year"). I am glad I decided lying sleepless in my bed last night that it would be better if I packed things from the school today than going in tomorrow. Now I have it here and waiting. I should probably throw some more of it away--it's hard to know what I should throw out, though... I have a few ideas, though. Maybe.
But I also forgot to get some of a particular spice when I went shopping, tonight [even though I made a list! but this spice wasn't *on* the list, so...], and now I've run out. Meh.
Anyway, back to relaxing. I'm at about 45% done packing--which is the point where you've done a lot but know you're not even really halfway, yet. This is perhaps the most frustrating point in packing for me... It's so demoralizing. So tonight I rest ; tomorrow I scrape and claw. I want to be basically done in the next three days (because after that I'm going to Kobe for two days) ; basically living out of my suitcase for the last week I'm here and just have a handful of bulky but simple things to put in boxes after I go see a movie (Unstoppable) after my last day of work... Then I'll get some good rest, wake up the next day not underslept or freaking out about having forgotten or not gotten to something, ship my things ahead of me, sell my bike back to the used bicycle shop on the way to the train station and be on my way to Tokyo well, well before the last train. God help me.
I'm also finding it difficult to judge, for example, if I should try to pack the rest of my jug of cold-water laundry detergent. I mean, Tokyo is supposed to have all sorts of things available that are much more difficult to find in the rest of Japan, but I'm gonna be pissed off and take it kindof hard if I throw away six months' worth of cold-water detergent only to find it's still only available on a fluke. But then it might also be pretty annoying to go to the trouble of taking it along if cold-water detergent is available in every third store... I've lived abroad long enough to prefer having more than enough ; but I've moved enough to appreciate cutting off any lose flesh I can. Conflict and conundrum.
As far as deciding what to keep or toss regarding work--I know only enough to know I don't know enough to make really good decisions, oh, and that there's no way for me to learn enough in the time and with the resources I do have.
For now, at least, I think I have plenty of boxes. And enough tape. Above these other concerns is making the decisions between what things I'll need and use (and possibly want) in the next month and therefor pack in the suitcases and what things are likely to be able to wait for six-ish weeks without making me regret it. Meh.
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