Lately I've been thinking I don't play nearly hard enough to balance out my work....

Some clouds, 4C (1C)

Oh, I feel so exhausted. Received, signed, and return-mailed my new contract, today. That was exciting and quite a relief.

I haven't packed any more in the past two nights (are we counting tonight? I think so...). I feel freaked out and anxious about that but I'm too tired to do much about it. Tomorrow is another hellish day [work has been especially enraging this week, but we'll not go into any of that], but then I have two days holiday--hopefully in which to PACK!PACK!PACK--work one day, then six days to basically finish packing [then one last week of work, here]. Well, it'll end up being only 5 days because I have to say g'bye to ppl in Kobe. I don't actually like compressing my packing by so much, but realistically, if I just work straight through it shouldn't take more than two days--three if we count stopping to go find a newspaper to buy and pack breakables in...

And I haven't even tried calling NTT about temporarily suspending my Internet service... god help me, I do not look forward to that. I cannot understand their automated menus to save my life. It sucks. Maybe I'll just wuss out and ask for help. I hate doing that, though. I was born and raised in America, you know, and Americans like to do things all by themselves. Especially this one.

And I don't even know who I'd ask--my Mg now is not really a Mg ; my old coworker in Kobe is already so busy with her school, this would take her maybe 15 minutes and I know she'd be willing to help me with it... ; my new Mgs are in Tokyo/England and I'll probably ask one of them to help me out on that end, so.... I guess I should just contact my old coworker about it.... WoW, I suck...

Man, but for now I really should dry my hair and get to my bedtime routine--I've replied to all the emails I meant to (I'm pretty sure...), and dl'd some goodies for whatever time I may be offline, so...

Gyakuten

Partly cloudy, 2C (-7C)

Hiei-san is supposed to get 100cm of snow, tonight.

In chatting with someone, I'm really inspired to wax on the idea of counter-points and strengths--that every strength is/has an inherent weakness.

Every strength [and every weakness, for that matter] has a gyakuten--a counterpoint--an Achilles heel. For example : I can be alone in depths and for lengths that many others could not bear, but my strength at that can make me not so good at handling being with ppl while other ppl are very good with others and in interpersonal relationships but cannot tolerate solitude. Those who cannot tolerate being alone even briefly and shallowly can connect with others in ways and with ease that are basically impossible for me to exercise on any widespread or consistent basis...

It is this myriad of criss-crossing strengths and gyakuten that make living in the world so complicated, and so delicately balanced.

A person shouldn't aim to be all strength or as little weakness as possible as much as they should aim for a constellation of strengths and weaknesses refined as entirely as possible [along with their counter-points] which allows their personality and character to bloom to their fullest potential and therefore allows the individual to fulfill the greatest of his or her "destiny," as it were.

===On a totally different note!

I must especially get lots of packing done this weekend because I am going to Kobe for an overnight stay--Jan 1 and 2nd. This means that I will not be alone in my apartment avoiding the particularly distressing Oshogatsu-stares of the Japanese for New Year's.