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Battle cry?
Growing up the way I did, we weren't allowed to stand out. There was a ridiculous clause that this didn't apply to academics but for the most part, I applied it anyway.
I think this has contributed to endemic laziness on my part, which is not particularly good for a lot of reasons. I want to become good at something and for that something to make me stand out. Maybe that's what I've been trying to do all along. But I also hate standing out. Dilemma.
Work...
Some of my students are pissing me off a bit. A handful have decided they want to use up as much of their contracts as possible before I go--which is fucking ridiculous and stupid to boot. But that aside, it creates lots of extra work for me--on top of everything else. It's a nice compliment, I guess, but I know it's inaccurate to take it that way. So I am left somewhat grumpy and sad. Some of them are already asking about details for a farewell party/event, which does not thrill me for many reasons, my own preference for avoiding such displays being least of which. I feel like everyone is imposing on me too much and it's completely uncalled for.
Bad attitude
So the plan for this weekend was to go to the museum and Nankinmachi today, Arima tomorrow. I'm dragging my feet on this. Because I think the weather outside is yucky. Really yucky. Even though going to the museum and Nankinmachi are important to me and time is seriously running out--even more so considering the above issue with students who were once a week now wanting three, four, or even five lessons per week.
The museum is closed tomorrow--it's so inconvenient. It'll be open one Monday this month--the 19th, but I'm worried about putting it off until then and it getting pushed aside because of packing coming down to the wire ; refer to this handy table to see my [planned] budget of time (the bolded items WILL NOT CHANGE, dammit):
There is an alternate plane wherein I would do not much at all this weekend and do the museum, Nankinmachi and Arima all on the 19th. While I would like to do them all in one day, Sundays at Arima are supposed to be very busy (avoiding crowds for nakedtime is a good idea, as a foreigner, since I am so averse to the staring that rustic Japanese seem to think is acceptable) and the museum is closed on Mondays (except when Monday is a public holiday). Besides, it's already a little late to do all three, today...
The problem with the second plan is the weather. Today is basically clear--which is good for Nankinmachi--the 19th may or may not be and is also supposed to be closer to the height of summer heat. Also, the 19th being a public holiday, Arima will probably be swamped (although the rainy season is off-season for onsen...).
Fucking hell, I should just get my shit together and go to the damned museum, already!
Battle cry?
Growing up the way I did, we weren't allowed to stand out. There was a ridiculous clause that this didn't apply to academics but for the most part, I applied it anyway.
I think this has contributed to endemic laziness on my part, which is not particularly good for a lot of reasons. I want to become good at something and for that something to make me stand out. Maybe that's what I've been trying to do all along. But I also hate standing out. Dilemma.
Work...
Some of my students are pissing me off a bit. A handful have decided they want to use up as much of their contracts as possible before I go--which is fucking ridiculous and stupid to boot. But that aside, it creates lots of extra work for me--on top of everything else. It's a nice compliment, I guess, but I know it's inaccurate to take it that way. So I am left somewhat grumpy and sad. Some of them are already asking about details for a farewell party/event, which does not thrill me for many reasons, my own preference for avoiding such displays being least of which. I feel like everyone is imposing on me too much and it's completely uncalled for.
Bad attitude
So the plan for this weekend was to go to the museum and Nankinmachi today, Arima tomorrow. I'm dragging my feet on this. Because I think the weather outside is yucky. Really yucky. Even though going to the museum and Nankinmachi are important to me and time is seriously running out--even more so considering the above issue with students who were once a week now wanting three, four, or even five lessons per week.
The museum is closed tomorrow--it's so inconvenient. It'll be open one Monday this month--the 19th, but I'm worried about putting it off until then and it getting pushed aside because of packing coming down to the wire ; refer to this handy table to see my [planned] budget of time (the bolded items WILL NOT CHANGE, dammit):
| Weekend | Tasks |
| July 4th-5th | 4th - Museum and Nankinmachi 5th Arima |
| July 11th-12th | 11th - packing 12th - I'm to meet Masaru (from online) for the first time at Heijyoukyou in Nara, we'll be focusing on the things I missed in May in the East portion of the site |
| July 18th-19th | 18th - packing 19th - packing |
| July 25th-26th | Kanazawa w/![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif){kind=small} tsubasa_en11!!! :-DDDD |
| August 1st-2nd | this hasn't been announced to me, yet, but this is probably the weekend I will move to Moriyama if the information I have plays out |
There is an alternate plane wherein I would do not much at all this weekend and do the museum, Nankinmachi and Arima all on the 19th. While I would like to do them all in one day, Sundays at Arima are supposed to be very busy (avoiding crowds for nakedtime is a good idea, as a foreigner, since I am so averse to the staring that rustic Japanese seem to think is acceptable) and the museum is closed on Mondays (except when Monday is a public holiday). Besides, it's already a little late to do all three, today...
The problem with the second plan is the weather. Today is basically clear--which is good for Nankinmachi--the 19th may or may not be and is also supposed to be closer to the height of summer heat. Also, the 19th being a public holiday, Arima will probably be swamped (although the rainy season is off-season for onsen...).
Fucking hell, I should just get my shit together and go to the damned museum, already!
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