Fairweather Johnson

[sjcarpediem]

Fucking amazing, 14C (14C)

Various things happened and I ended up drinking five or six pints of Kilkenny and missing the last train back to Seta because I became disoriented and couldn't find the train station. I stayed the night in Osaka at a "new friend's" apartment. I called in sick today from work. I spent the entire morning on the verge of irrational panic, horrifyingly overwhelmed and exceedingly shaky on everything under the sun and in the universe, praying to god that I would somehow bear my life without totally cracking, fretting about every consequence that could ever possibly result from my actions or lack of action, hating myself like I've never hated before. Let me tell you, it was incredibly hard.

But then I was able to start shifting my paradigm on the way back to town.

And I was able to notice how breathtakingly beautiful today is. And how full of pleasure it is.

And now I am exceedingly thankful to be in such a graceful universe.

I'm glad I accepted an invitation to some after work beers. I'm glad I enjoyed so many of them. I'm glad I played pool (and pretty well for how long it's been!--and could still do other things pretty well which I haven't done for a very long time). I'm glad I knew all the songs they were playing. I'm glad I made some friends even if just for one night in a pub (because I really, really need friends). I'm glad I missed the train. I'm glad I'm taking today off rather than trying to go to work. I'm glad I can take a shower, now.

Comments

[bowtomecha.livejournal.com]

this made me smile.

[sjcarpediem.livejournal.com]

That makes me smile. :-)