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Cloudy, 15C (12C)
I'm freaking tired.
I have stuff to write about.
But I won't get to it.
Hint : I'm feel like my life is all about absorbing consequences and not so much about making decisions. I want to stress here that "consequences" are negative and I get lots and lots of those while I have a hard time thinking of the last "benefit" (which would be a positive result)--and even that is a benefit on one side with several prongs of consequence on the other, to which I call bullshit.
And deciding how to accept consequences still being making decisions is vetoed. I would like to take back what I said earlier, I think, about it being good I'm not satisfied. I think my life would be a lot easier if I could just be happy and satisfied sitting around being fat and stupid. And bored. ~to ka
And other stuff.
Kindof lots of other stuff.
Oh, but I lost my voice completely at the end of teaching, yesterday. Spent most of the night nursing it back. Used my secret-weapon-recipe twice today at work. It barely held out through my last class, tonight. Currently it hurts a lot, and I still have to get through tomorrow.
WTF, ppl, WTF. It has to get all better over my weekend because I'm too fucking tired to deal with this shit *and* everything else for much longer than that.
It occurred to me while at work that whenever I become horrifyingly overstressed I randomly lose my voice. I lost it for a whole week once when I was a uni student the first time. I wonder what that's about, exactly. And if there's pain associated, it's always high enough in my throat to also cause discomfort in my ears (even though the voicebox is a bit lower than that...).
Oh, and god, you should continue helping me. Lots and lots and lots.
I'm freaking tired.
I have stuff to write about.
But I won't get to it.
Hint : I'm feel like my life is all about absorbing consequences and not so much about making decisions. I want to stress here that "consequences" are negative and I get lots and lots of those while I have a hard time thinking of the last "benefit" (which would be a positive result)--and even that is a benefit on one side with several prongs of consequence on the other, to which I call bullshit.
And deciding how to accept consequences still being making decisions is vetoed. I would like to take back what I said earlier, I think, about it being good I'm not satisfied. I think my life would be a lot easier if I could just be happy and satisfied sitting around being fat and stupid. And bored. ~to ka
And other stuff.
Kindof lots of other stuff.
Oh, but I lost my voice completely at the end of teaching, yesterday. Spent most of the night nursing it back. Used my secret-weapon-recipe twice today at work. It barely held out through my last class, tonight. Currently it hurts a lot, and I still have to get through tomorrow.
WTF, ppl, WTF. It has to get all better over my weekend because I'm too fucking tired to deal with this shit *and* everything else for much longer than that.
It occurred to me while at work that whenever I become horrifyingly overstressed I randomly lose my voice. I lost it for a whole week once when I was a uni student the first time. I wonder what that's about, exactly. And if there's pain associated, it's always high enough in my throat to also cause discomfort in my ears (even though the voicebox is a bit lower than that...).
Oh, and god, you should continue helping me. Lots and lots and lots.