TOMORROW and tomorrow and tomorrow

You see, the statistic is that most ppl look forward to tomorrow. They think it will be better than today. Well, I don't. I know tomorrow will be worse. That's what I've learned. So the only way I want today to end, when we get down to brass tacks, is without tomorrow.

And I feel like nobody understands something so simple. So I'm so alone.

Today, I thought a lot about strength and weakness. I'm definitetly weak, although I keep meeting tomorrow.

I'm so greatful I walked in the rain, tonight, but I still don't want to meet tommorow.

I'll have to, though.

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Sundry

Light rain, 18C (18C)

The thing is, I'm so worried about keeping my belongings that I've forgotten why I have them.

Will have to do something about that.

Life should be more fun.

I think I need to move somewhere I can meet people and have fun with them. Good conversations, etc. Cook for one another, etc.

Oh, and I'm not saying I'm going dry forever, but starting today I'm laying off the booze for a while.

Also, I have my voice back almost entirely. I actually like my voice--not recorded!--so that's nice.

I was going to go shopping to try to find ingredients for tomato soup and even settle for pita instead of sourdough, since I can get that. We'll see.

Right now, I feel no responsibility towards my job. I rather like that.

I don't want to give anyone my money.

Etc.

I'm kindof tired of thinking so hard about my life, trying to plan it out, etc. It just never works. Like, what should I do about that? I'm so serious about it all the time! And life is so short! I'm already 28. And I have no place, no family, no career. Because I'm so damned serious all the time, but about nothing in particular...